Sorry for being like Edward…
Sorry for being like Edward and up and disappearing for a good while there.
Unlike him, I did NOT do it because I thought it was for your own good.
Unlike Bella, I was not in some catatonic state, staring out the window watching the month pass by (when I should have been blogging).
Perhaps, like Meyer, I should think of my blogging self as a character I can’t control.
As documented at Twilighters Anonymous, when asked “Why did Edward leave. WHY?,” Meyer replied:
“As I started plotting New Moon (untitled at that point), it became clear that Edward was Edward, and he would have to behave as only Edward would. And, because of that, Edward was leaving.
NO! I didn’t want Edward to leave. I pitched a fit every bit as violent and tearful as those I’ve seen in New Moon discussion forums. I tried to talk him out of it. I presented him with other plot options. I begged. Edward remained unmoved.”
Along these lines, I could argue the following:
It became clear that my blogging self was going to behave as only my blogging self would, and, because of that, she quit blogging.
NO! I pitched a violent, tearful fit. I begged my blogging self to blog. She remained unmoved.
But, as I tend to have this crazy notion that we actually have control over our actions, our “different selves” and our writing, I won’t make that claim. Indeed, I find it odd that Meyer constructs herself as helpless to the whims of her characters (kind of like Bella is helpless and in Edward’s thrall, no?).
So, I won’t blame my blogging self. Instead, I will admit that the last six weeks of the semester kicked by butt. I felt a bit like Bella swimming frantically to escape Victoria in those dark, cold La Push waters. Sadly, no corpse -colored Edward floated by to take my hand. No muscular Jacob swooped me from the depths and carried me to shore.
Alas, I made it out of the deep, and am now in the process of finishing up the grading for five classes. As such, I will be back to regular blogging very soon, dear readers, with posts planned on Twilight names, the official guide, Like Water for Elephants, and my Introduction to WMST 101 Twilight-inflected online summer course (if anyone needs or wants to take a WMST 101 course, it is open to non-students – contact me if you are interested!)
Now, my blogging self must go as I need to morph into my professorial, grading role…